I am spending this week on retreat at a beautiful lake cabin with puppy Rocket as my companion. The fall colors and sunsets are beautiful, as is the distant cry of the loon. Very relaxing, very needed.
Over the past week I have experienced incredible fatigue. It is possible that this is an immune system response caused by the new cannabis oil (pain is down, appetite up) - that would be good. Or this is an expected side effect of the cancer progression. Simply dealing with "what is", NOW appears to be a time that I am called to fold into myself, into more silence. I save my energy for my kids, my books and that darn little puppy who exhausts me. Please don't be concerned, or hurt, if I don't reach out or have energy for social visits. Perhaps my energy will return, perhaps not, but right now I get exhausted very easily, many times per day.
I truly appreciate that people care about me and want to help me, THANK YOU! Time is so precious, let me tell you the simple things that I need.
Puppy sitters (So I can rest or run errands)
Help getting my kids settled - transporting furniture mostly (Brigit needs a dresser and bed platform)
An oil change and new windshield wipers (yes really)
Meals, when I can no longer cook for my family
Help planning a funeral - including audio visual
Good books, and people who read them
A peaceful place to be during my final days