My daughter has been an inspiration in helping me to focus on stretching the midpoint, rather than jumping to "the end". She begged me not to accept death so readily, to be more positive, to "endure" the cancer with intention for a long life. To her credit she did not insist that I deny or pretend, only that I am present and positive. This is excellent advice that most certainly will produce a happy and more long(ish) life. I am thankful for my daughter's ability to articulate her fears and speak to me honestly. Of course I committed to becoming more present and "alive" for both of us. My work began immediately relearning how to live a joyous life, while dancing arm in arm with cancer.
Here's the task list so far:
1) Rode a bike!
2) Talk openly with friends and family about my grief
2) Listen openly to suggestions
3) Say "yes" to friends inviting me out
4) Research options for Yoga practice
5) Research cancer support groups
6) Keep a gratitude journal
7) Recite daily a positive mantra accepting the cancer as part of my life and body
8) Making plans for getaway vacations
9) Return to meditation practice and retreats
10) Plans to team with my daughter on a writing project
11) List of museums and events to attend this summer
12) Book List: impermanence, honoring the sacred, gratitude
13) Volunteer at Gilda's Club